Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Giving it to God

 22 Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for each other, love one another deeply, from the heart.[b] 23 For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. 24 For,
   “All people are like grass,
   and all their glory is like the flowers of the field;
the grass withers and the flowers fall,
 25 but the word of the Lord endures forever.”[c]
   And this is the word that was preached to you.   1 Peter 1: 22-25 NIV

I have struggled many years with my past.  I have given it to God so many times.  Many of you may have done this also....you go to a christian conference, special church service, or just a regular church service around Easter.  You hear the truth about how your sins are forgiven and God remembers them no more.  You give God the guilt and shame in that moment only to take it back a short time later.  Then you walk around with the guilt and shame on your shoulders weighing you down until the next time you decide to give it to God.  It's a cycle that Satan likes to keep us in.  I have been attending church now for 17 years, I keep thinking to myself this should not be a problem for me.  I KNOW Jesus died for my sins.....I KNOW his blood was shed for me.....I KNOW I am washed white as snow!!!  I know all of this but is it in my head and just not made it to my heart?  I have struggled  for years as I'm sure many of you have done as well.

I can confidently say today the message has made it to my heart!!! There is hope!  I recently attended an Extraordinary Women's Conference and let me tell you....God moved in a huge way in my life.  Before I get to the conference I do have to say that God had been nudging me on something from my past.  He has been encouraging me to share my testimony of my past.  Well Satan decided to jump in there and throw his two cents in.  So I negotiated with God..."not now, we have too much going on"...."I can't talk to my husband about this, he has enough stress in his life and I don't want to add to it".  I managed to squash it down, like we do when we really don't want to do it.  So I go to this conference and the first speaker is a man named Joe White. Within about 30 minutes of him speaking I was crying and God was speaking directly to me through this man!  At the end of his session he reminded us that our sins where taken on by Christ and if we chain ourselves to Christ we are forgiven.  We are purified in Christ!  He asked us to write whatever our burden was on a piece of paper and walk it up to the front and finally give it to God.  While I didn't walk my piece of paper up to the stage to be nailed on that cross, I did give it to God.  I turned it all over to Him.  I completely understood in my heart that Christ died for me.  Every sin I commit, past, present and future were nailed to the cross.  Christ took upon himself that day, my sin, my shame, my guilt, my past!  He willingly took it so that I could be forgiven by the Almighty God!  He loves me so much he shed his blood and had his body broken so that I could live in Heaven spotless and blameless!  I gave it all to God that day and I can't even express the peace I have now.  I don't know if I will take it back from God, I am hoping that I don't but even if I do....I know God will continue to love me and forgive me.  He will cover me with His grace and mercy daily.  Now as far as my testimony....well God is still working on that with me.  I have made progress and I am excited to see what He has planned for me. 


“My salvation and my honor depend on God; he is my mighty rock, my refuge.” Psalm 62:7 NIV

Thursday, March 15, 2012

Cades Cove, TN


Creek view


water wheel at the mill

Hymnal in the baptist church

Water for the mill
These are some of the pictures taken in Tennessee.

 
Moss on top of a building
 
Cross on the floor of an old baptist church in Cades Cove (picture taken by my daughter)
 
water falling down the side of the mountain

My attempt at being a professional photographer!  (not too bad)

sun shining through the trees

Wow, it's been a while since I have written anything...life has been busy. 

The family and I did have the opportunity to spend a few days in the mountains of Tennessee.  The mountains have to be our families most favorite place to spend our time.  It is beautiful and you truly get to see God's glory.  I'm not sure what it is, whether it's just a chance to slow down and actually notice God's beauty or if it is just the one place we all feel close to God.  I'm guessing a little of both.  It is time for us to slow down, not worry about phones, work, school, computers, busyness...just us as a family riding and walking in the mountains.  We spent a whole day riding in the National Forest and in Cades Cove, TN.  It was a very relaxing time for all of us.  The cabin was amazing...not only was it beautiful and peaceful but it was also filled with God.  The owners of the cabin were great to deal with and you could feel their love for God in the cabin.  It was wonderful!  I woke each morning to the glorious picture of the mountainside covered with trees, birds singing and the sun shining bright.  Two mornings we also woke quite early, 3:30am, to the most gorgeous moon shining into our window like a spotlight.  We also had a cute little visitor who greeted us as soon as we got there.  It was a raccoon, who some past visitors had named "Doritos".  He was cute....as long as he stayed outside!

Beautiful!!    Cades Cove, TN 

We went up there for my daughter's cheerleading competition (just a side note of how good God is....the owner of the cabin was also a cheerleader...how cool is that).  It also happened to be her birthday.  So for her birthday, her dad and brother sat ALL day with us Saturday watching cheerleading.  It was great, of course they would have much rather been in the woods but Allie loved having them both there.   The best part of the day for me was watching her on the cheer stage and nail ALL of her tumbling and when she came off the stage she was beaming...."I did it mama!!"  I was one proud mom and thanking God for building her confidence!  My girl landed, among other things, her running round-off, back-handspring, tuck BOTH days!!! I knew she could all along but she needed to know she could and God answered our prayers! It was beautiful!!


We had a great time and can't wait to go back.  I will try to upload some more pictures from our trip.  If you have never been to Cades Cove, TN I encourage you to go, it is amazing!