Friday, November 2, 2012

4 So my spirit grows faint within me;
my heart within me is dismayed.
5 I remember the days of long ago;
I meditate on all your works
and consider what your hands have done.
6 I spread out my hands to you;
I thirst for you like a parched land.
Psalm 143
 
I have been struggling a lot lately with a multitude of emotions.  Some days have been not so bad but other days have been a battle.  One day is just blah and the next on the brink of tears.  It truly feels like a battle raging within my mind and I am riding a roller coaster that won't stop.  I just feel like running and hiding; away from everything.  I have a longing to go into God's wilderness and just sit in the peace of His creation and lay whatever this is at His feet! 
 
I am making plans to do just that soon but until then I am CHOOSING today to make the best of this roller coaster ride.   I had been keeping up with the Joy Dare but have slacked off, so today I CHOOSE to start it again.  I read the above Psalm and these verses describe my spirit and what I need to do to fight my enemies.  I am choosing to "meditate on all" God's works. 
 
 
So here is my plan.....beginning today I am going to keep up with my gift counting and post a picture to instagram of something I am thankful for each day.  Counting my blessings and gifts can only do me good! 
 
Lord God, I choose you today.  I choose to bow down at your feet.  Lord you know my spirit is faint.  I trust you and know full well what you have already done for me. Today I choose to meditate on your works.  In Jesus name...Amen.